You know, just experiencing all the sights and sounds this world has to offer.
I often wonder how her personality would fit into our family. What traits would be her Dad's and which would be mine. Would she be more serious like Ethan or more silly like Abby? I feel like I know her perfect, beautiful and strong little spirit but we didn't get enough time to know her.
I wonder if she was going to look like Abby or like Ethan or maybe a mixture of both or maybe not like either of them at all.
I just miss her.
It's hard to go to church and see babies around her age (she would be 7 months now). It's hard going to Target and walking passed the baby clothes department. It's hard with Christmas coming up that I'm looking for Christmas PJ's for my family and knowing I have one more pair I should be buying.
There's no way around it...
It's hard...
I wish I had more faith, I wish I had all the answers, I wish it wasn't so heartbreaking, but most of all I wish she was here with us.
I am glad to know what I know, that heaven is real and I will see my beautiful baby girl again...one day. But for right now, not having her here with us is hard.
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I love you Kelli!
Don't think for one second that she isn't here with you. You may not see her or be able to hold her and kiss her cheeks, but she is there and she loves you as much as you love her.
She is happy where she is and is free from the trials and troubles of this life and is grateful you gave her the chance to come to earth, if only for a short time.
Love you!
Oh, Kelli. I wish I could give you a big hug. I imagine it will get easier, but I don't think it will ever go away - and you probably wouldn't want it to. Some day - probably sooner rather than later - you'll get to raise her and experience so many of things you're missing now.
Thanks for sharing. I'm sure missing her hits at all different, sometimes unexpected times. What a wonderful mother you are. Love you Kelli!!
I wish no mom ever had to go through the heartbreak of losing a child. I especially wish my good friend didn't have to feel that sorrow. We love you guys so much.
Kelli... I still think of you and your sweet Amber often. Love and prayers to your sweet family!
xo
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