Every Party Has A...

...Well, you know...And that's OK in this case because the party is for me and it's in the form of P~I~T~Y! I feel on the very verge of throwing myself the biggest pity party ever!! No nothing life changing or earth shattering happened that would warrant such a party...But I mean we're talking the depths of despair here people...I feel like I'm in the lowest P~I~T of the P~I~T~Y! Could someone toss me a ladder or even a rope, heck throw me a bone! I don't care! WAIT! Before you call the looney bin to have me hauled off, I don't mean to sound all desperately depressed or in need of serious medical attention or anything like that. I've just been feelin' bad about myself and the things I've NOT been doing.

If you'll indulge me for a moment here (read no further if you don't want to hear a complainer who really has nothing to complain about, complain about stuff) a few things that are bugging the HECK out of me! I've not been running in a month and feel like a big ol' tub of goo...My inner housewife is in need of a wake up call or something...My house is a DISASTER...And while on that subject my poor husband picks up a lot of my slack (you'd think I'd be grateful but generally it just makes me feel really bad and guilty)...I could definitely use some help in being a kinder, sweeter, more gentle wife...I feel oh so inadequate in my mothering, and in my calling at church... I feel like right now is the worst I've ever looked in my whole life (see family picture to the right), which I think it has very little to do with vanity and a lot to do with the fact that I stopped really caring about my appearance somewhere along the way (if you personally know of a time when I have looked worse, please don't mention it...thanks...appreciate it)...I don't can or jam or sing or sew I don't bake or craft or have all my food storage in order (even if I had some it mostly likely wouldn't be organized)...which brings me to my next point, I'm messy and unorganized...I don't say the right things at the right time, I say the wrong things at the wrong time...I'm a procrastinator BIG time...The list goes on and on and on and on...See what I mean I could have one serious pity party! And maybe I just did, sorry if you didn't want to be guests at that party, I didn't even let you RSVP...How rude (just add that to the list too).

And just so you know I'm not fishing for compliments here, really I am NOT, no really. I just really needed to get that off my chest! Maybe now we've 'partied' and I got it out of my system, I can move on to other more productive and uplifting ways to party! Like get off your butt and clean your house party! Or dust off those running shoes and enjoy the beautiful Texas weather, while it lasts party! Or throw out your old junk and get organzied party! Or get a hair cut and color that you actually like party!

See? I'm feeling better already! Look at the all the parties I get to attend, although I think I'm the hostess and the only guest but whatever!